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Sunday, May 29, 2016

Radioactivate

(1)
how is it
that you
have decayed more beautifully
without me

i want to taste
your breath
i fell/feel
in love
with the black holes
between our pulses

the brand of black holes
that devour the space bars
exhale
repurposed light

sometimes 
my empty
curls up in
the baby bottle of you
and you
should drink it
like fresh
saltwater

it would clean
the scars sleeping
in your stomach

(2)
when you
stuff a man/
lover/
love/
accident
into memory
he crawls back out
a ghost
from an oven

he 
licks
his charred lips
asks you 
who
dinner
tastes
like

(3)
why short are lines tastier
but long stories stuffed belly

(4)
maybe our lives
were meant
to be
raindrops
not
oceans

maybe
you glisten
slammed against
my dusty window


radioactivated

Sunday, May 1, 2016

They Say (After KiNG & Simply Kat)

They say  I bellyflopped out of a commitment-phones’ nightmare
I say  I'm still the girl of your dreams
They call me clingy,
        too sensitive,
     say my feet wear clumsy more than shoes
     plummet into blackhole hearts
I say  God attached my organs so 
     I could give you the whole galaxy inside me
They say  you’re too put together 
     try too hard to be something
I say  I'm tired of being called nothing 
     you haven’t been checking the voicemails from my anxiety
     Don't know that when my heartbeat is a dialtone
     a clean shirt means another morning
They say  the alarm is my only call out of bed each morning
I say  someone has to radio activate the sun
They say  I'm a sunny side up egg spilling out its yolk 
     Tell me to tuck my dick in  
     I don't have enough cock to be this cocky
I say  I've never had enough self-control to suffocate my tongue
They say  staple your mouth
     conceal your atria
     stop putting your private shit out there
I say  I can’t let it live in here
     my body won’t be another cage
They say  Someone will love you in spite of your body
     Say I’m thick
     curvy
     1-800 hotline bling fat
I say  I am hard to cut through
     ripple like radiowaves 
     that Drake is my kind of nice Jewish boy
They say  Brown boys like a little extra
     you’re something they could grab onto

They say it like an insult


I say I’m not defined by who wants to fuck me
     And maybe I don’t want white boys to fuck me
     Because we’ve been fucked over by them for way too long
     that snowmen melt into fishbowl hammerheads
     smash mothers into dinner      
     father tastes like a kitchen knife chasing me into memory
They say  if I want a guy to stay, 
     I should stop bringing up my daddy issues
I say  I’m looking for a man
They say  no man wants a girl with a voice
I say  every girl has a voice
They say  but yours is too loud
I say  silence is what you feed a genocide


They make a Holocaust joke
I don’t let them dig up the family graveyard


They say  You make everything about being Jewish
I say  too many people have died for me to be here
     Too many people have died for all of us to be here
     we are ricocheted bullets 
     out of ashes
     I write above a graveyard, guilty I’m not buried beneath
They say  I’m dying to be noticed


Call me obnoxious
the attention whore
the drama queen
the flaming cunt


I say  you shouldn’t have fed me matches
     If you were afraid of fire


Call me slut
call me prude
call me fucked up


I say  It really fucked you that up that I wouldn’t fuck you?
They say  fuck you
I say  I have beheaded ghosts you’ll never have to see
They say  we don’t see you
I say  listen
They say no
I say  listen
They say no
I say  I am an earthquake’s footprint stabbing a tsunami
     autotune my hiccups to hurricanes
     Paper clip my voicebox, 
     but I will never be your silent statistic
=They say  I’m always tossing in dead babies
I say  you’re just mad my anchors still cry
They ask  why are you crying?
I say  because I’m brave enough to still feel
They ask  How do you feel?
I say  my toes tremble on six inch heels of empowerment
     I’m always walking on eggshells
They say  They’re just eggshells
I say  we are ruptured nests
     we are pulsed from the cracks
     the rippled sum of broken sea
     we should be closer to our salty bloodlines
     but I can’t figure out how to swim


They ask  That why you dance like you are drowning?
I answer  difficult women never breathe easy


They ask  Why do you think everyone hates you?


     They wouldn’t if I knew the answer.



They say  ask a therapist
I say  I have an appointment with a empty page
They say  shed ink until you're naked starlight
I say  my veins are only glowsticks


They say you can swallow this darkness


I try to believe them
I try to believe myself
I try to believe in myself
I try to believe


They say  You have such a big personality
I say  I never dreamt of being this small.

Contact

Ariel is available and interested in anything creative!
For spoken word performances & workshops, web & graphic design, or other writing/film projects please contact via email at arielsob@usc.edu.
New York & Los Angeles work preferred!