Translucent Affections

when i first realized i felt this way about you

i couldn’t breathe

suddenly all my bones and marrow and organs began to wreathe

an intense feeling of euphoria

not the kind that they wrap around you in classically contemporary cliches

an utopian sensation

some kind of internal recreation

that i couldn’t calm

that i didn’t want to subdue

the pulse of fresh love for you

it delivered some peace within my worries

like a strange dove swimming down the cascades of my soul

it made me want to act

and forced all my insecurities to contract within a miniscule box to be discarded

because now something wonderful has started

young love

fresh

like peeling an orange and sticking your teeth within its citric flesh

and you can see that right now i am a complete mess

i don’t know how to act or how to dress

just to mesh every minute of my life to winning you

while making a futile attempt not to obsess

over your sapphire eyes

and how they don’t make my heart fly

but soar

and how watching you in english

is the only reason last week i didn’t snore during that grammar unit

so come on

let’s do this

you know how it goes

just stand up and tell him you like him

that the idea of him touching your hand makes your head spin

come on now

you can lose or win

take the plunge

you're running so rapidly

now is the time to lunge

into this pool of affection

a current

a new direction

the stew of electricity

of pure fluorescence that will shatter over you

that can pierce the darkness that has devoured you

now is the moment to rise and fight off
 everything that won’t let you seize a night off

so i’m here running up the row and kissing you

it’s my first

who knew?

suddenly i do more than see but have sight

i conquered the darkness

i shall revel in your light.