Before I Reach My Final Rhyme

I should be studying drivers ed

But you are trapped within my head

Along with all the things you have and haven’t said

You’ve gotten me to a point where I dread

Every breath I take that can’t form into words to share with you

You’ve left me incapacitated

Hung over you

Hanging

And that’s all you seem to do

Is chill by my side

But that’s not good enough for my pride

I want to dive inside the chambers of your heart

To press all your buttons and see how they start

But you keep flip flopping

And dropping

The ball

Not the good kind

Oh my

See what you’ve done

You’ve rearranged my mind

And forced me to find

Some sexual puns to drop inside my cherished poetry

Because honestly I just want you all over me

I wouldn’t say I’m in love with you

It’s too early for that

But since the time we’ve shared my spirit has not sat

You have pumped it with an unknown energy

I just want to touch you

The way you hugged me for too long as a goodbye

And how I dropped my palm into yours

And felt myself fly

But when we are amongst friends

I feel shy

I feel confined by

Social groups and graces

And I just pray someone erases the boundaries between us

Because you are just so damn cute

And not being in your arms is a total crap shoot

I’m shot by a single one of your glances

Feeling how my inner desire dances

And thrusts itself upon your page

I love that you have so many pages

Yet are impossible to read

Listen

You should just say you like me

So you can let my anxieties be free

From my form

Because I was born to meet someone like you

To greet you into the world

Because we are both new

We are fresh visitors on this planet

Yet you seem so experienced

I’m a good girl who thinks fishnets are risqué

And you have visited the fray of what is right and wrong

You’ve drank the devil’s song

And I’m frightened by the fact I find that ok

I don’t mind the world you’ve left behind

And even if it’s one you still enter

Because you are the center of my joy

You are my luxurious toy

I just want to enjoy

And although I’m supposed to be this big poetess

You have forbidden rest

Because I have all this distress

That everything I proclaim you could’ve written better

 Because you have a stronger grasp of language than me

You are not fettered by simpleton’s rhymes

But I am

You make me seem bland

Seriously I’m making all these notes

But deep down all I can think about is holding your hand

Kissing your speakers

Stroking your cheeks

Marveling at the acne there

Because it makes me aware

That you are flawed

Like me

And see that we are a possibility

I don’t know what you’ve evoked and invoked

But damn you provoked this sensuality from within my veins

That I didn’t know dwelled there

And now I feel constantly insane

Trying to pick your brain for a sign of affection

Yet all I discover is perfection

So I drench myself in reflection

Creating an inspection of my qualities

And quantities

Trying to spawn something worthwhile

Desirable

In my past and future

Listen

I don’t know what to say

Except that I’m confused

And abused by these love games

Glad we’ve advanced past simple names

But terrorized by the fact you can’t just ask me out

How every moment I want to shout

And proclaim how damn fond I am of you

Because “I like you” is not sufficient

You know in bio we are always discussing the value of what’s efficient

So stop wasting time

Spark our fire

Before I reach my final rhyme.