Reality Ends Here

The West Coast has taught me that being a strong personality can be seen as a weakness

That to be liked more I've got to speak less

Not address the issues

Swallow tears and tissues

Confine the stress within my mind

Be dull and that's how you'll shine

But I can't find the key to lock myself in

You say I have no filter

But that's not the way I've been

There are secrets locked in a tomb

Instead I heave and thread some thoughts in my head

So the ones that can't leave have some room

And it's not an explosion even though you heard a boom

It's just the sound of my voice

The sound of my choice to live my life out loud

I've been told power is silence

Wordless scheming violence

But command is for those who have the courage to make themselves vulnerable

Who can hand you their secrets with no shame

Tell you their story but also their name

But California has just passed me passivity and the same

You tell me to be seen and not heard

But no one will look at you if you don't have the courage to call out their name

I can't hum the sum of the same

It's good to drum your feet to your own beat

But what if mine is my own flame

I'm told being big and bold should cause me shame

What if I'm supposed to speak my life story

Put out my private parts and don't let the world ignore me

Don't give a shit if what I spit makes you deplore me

There is beauty in the beast 

Who's not afraid to step on toes

Who doesn't make a scene but puts on whole shows

Doesn't show up but actually goes there

Doesn't care if they snap or snare

Because Los Angeles if reality starts here

I'm still living in the fantasy

And if the crowd abandons me

I'll feel safe and have faith in my friends

Because there's no isolation when your world opens

No hole when your heart extends

So Hollywood bring your best weapons

Because I'm the freak

Who'll speak

Kiss life on the cheek

Cry and not be weak

Sigh as I shriek

Change but not tweak

Flood never leak

I am not meek

I am unique

And my mystique

You critique

But it's beautiful all the same

Because I'm strong and a personality

The dry hurricane.