Lover Letters
Rather than one of my typical creations, I present to you a collection of poetry, entitled "Lover Letters". I discovered an unfinished poem, and then tried to complete it, but had lost it's tone due to a series of events. As I finished, I did not just see one poem, I saw four, each demonstrating an evolution of internal thoughts in a relationship. They were four unsent letters to a single lover, each with different messages and states, and now they are yours to enjoy.
#1
Sometimes
I wish you were my first love.
Then
I would have never had to love again.
But
instead the first one to steal my heart
Was
a tall boy I met at Jew camp.
He
wrote.
Songs.
But
he liked the music more than the words.
And
the idea of a girlfriend more than me.
But
you—you’re not like that.
You
say things that not even the most poetic boys can.
You
tell me that languages like Greek and Latin are gorgeous
And
that I’m the same.
You
don’t give me butterflies.
You
thrust a bunch of migrating birds in my chest
And
expect me to maintain my façade of confidence around you.
You
shift things
Creatures
like perspectives and priorities.
You’re
hurting my grades
Because
the only unit I’m studying is you
Because
you are the hardest test
And
I can’t rest or subdue my affection.
I
wish you were my first love.
But
you aren’t.
You
are my most stimulating
Ingraining
Elevating
Refraining
Refreshing
Reinvigorating
Frustrating.
But
I will be satisfied with this love
as long as you are my last.
as long as you are my last.
#2
Finding
your someone is like looking for a roommate
To
rent some space in your heart.
If
I posted up a flier in a coffee shop
You
would have fit the description.
I
didn’t know someone could conform to my mold
But
you do.
So
now I’m terrified of losing you
Well, at this point I should be fearful of not attaining you
Well, at this point I should be fearful of not attaining you
But
I’m the type of girl who just assumes you are mine
Who
thinks that when you say you love me you aren’t kidding
Who is looking for a non-jocular kind of bond
I’m
that luna-chick
And
you’ve managed to stick and then cement in my mind
I
can’t peel you off
Even
though you seem to be prying
And
trying to escape my world.
That’s
why this hurts so much.
You
are stepping back
When
you’ve already been submerged in the ocean
You
can’t find the coast anymore
There
is no return.
#3
They
say when you love something, you set it free.
That
is a load of crap.
When
you love something you fight for it with every particle of your being
And
beg it and steal it and hide it
You
don’t let anyone take him from you
Not
even himself.
So
I’m having a lot of trouble.
You
are wandering through my days and thoughts
And
I’m left distraught
As
you implement a scheme of mixed signals and symbols
Destroying
my symphony by adding unnecessary drums and timbales
And
I can’t stand how you won’t say hello
After
you’ve held my hand
How
I’ve cradled your face is my palms
This
world is fleeting
But
that doesn’t mean that you should be.
You’ve
left this itch like a restless flee
And
I don’t understand the methods of extermination
Or
termination
Or
terms
I
just comprehend how your presence devours me
Like
a bunch of worms
Weaving
through my skin
How
you make me wish I was thin
So
then I’d be beautiful enough for you
Because
our bio teacher did proclaim that we tend to mate within our own beauty class
Little
did she know she was encouraging me to tighten my as...paragus
But
I don’t think that is the point of this poem
If
it has a purpose at all
Likely
it’s a story of a girl who started to fall
But
hit the ground too early
Right
now you are miles away
I
don’t know what to say to you
But
by the moment you return I pray I do
Because
I cannot bear an emotional departure.
#4
I’m
just writing these letters
Not
love letters
These
are lover letters
Because
they do not describe love
They
are the sensation itself
Because
that’s the way I am
You
can measure my emotions wealth
In
the amount of words I give them
Here
I’ve discussed my first love
And
how I want you to be my last
But
in reality I just want something to last
And
although these sentiments are entrenched in the past
I
wish they could just linger
That
they were tangible
Things
within I drench my fingers
But
we are postage yet to be delivered
There is no guarantee we will arrive
So
all I have is strife
And
this drive
To
uncover and finish half-remembered poems like these
I
caught you
You
weren’t game
You
were a disease
And
I realized that you had been sneezed
On
me by other girls
From
other worlds
Yet
we were all equally stupid
Strangled
by cupid
And
I’m not willing to be another faceless name
Or
nameless face
Stuck
in your pocket
Without
any care or grace
And
I keep on writing these poems
Treating
them as letters that you do not need
To
receive
They
are my reaction to your deeds
But
I’m not curing the cold
I’m
just wiping mucus on my sleeves
And
it wreathes of desperation
Using
you as my only inspiration
For
my creations
So
I’m going to do some exploration
Write
some declarations to myself
Sign
these letters here
Stamp
them
Then
confine them to a forgotten shelf.
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